Love is.......

Just been randomly inspired to do this blog after spending 3 whole hours watching The Ultimate Hits Of The 00's. What can I say? The 00's were full of love songs which brought me to think of a friend who has just been through a horrible breakup. I've tried telling him that even though you love the person/ in love with the person, sometimes it doesn't necessary mean you have to have the person. For me, loving someone means seeing them happy from afar even if they're with someone else and that someone else isn't you.
Love is a funny thing. It comes and goes. Even if you have broken up with the person, the love doesn't stop just there. I know it's a cliche but it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Sometimes I feel when I want something- I have to get it. I get super excited and sometimes cannot eat or sleep for days just from thinking about it. But when I am close to getting it- I step back and think will I be happy with it? I'd rather keep this feeling of having loved it at some point in my life rather than risking having it and not being happy. You always cherish what you have lost but by then, it's too late.

Love is patient. Instead of going out to find it, let it find you.

Things fall apart for better things to fall together.

It is hard to find someone you really love with your whole heart. Love knows no boundaries. I think I'd like to have someone who loves me more than I love him. I have found that person.
The past couple of weeks have made me realize that I cannot lose him. I think sometimes when I spend too much time on my own, I start to have crazy thoughts on thinking how things won't work out and I'm not going to lie- my heart has swayed. But it's all for the wrong reasons. I don't want to lose what I have- what I have is too special to lose. I think, as they say, communication is key.
I'm a very out there kind of person and I chat a lot- random stuff- life stuff. And I would need someone who can catch up with my pace.

Everybody remembers their first love. I certainly remember mine. He was a cool kid. Not very chatty. Kind of reserved. But being around him made me feel 'at ease'. Things didn't work out between us as we were friends first- then it escalated to being more than just friends. It all happened too quick too soon. I, being young at that time, broke up with him. He was pretty hurt for a while but I'm sure he's over it now. After all these years, we remained friends. 'Good friends' as I like to call it. But in my heart, I, myself, will always remember the good (and the bad) times we had. Everyone changes- but memories will always remain untouched. I wish him nothing but happiness in the future. 

AfterSchool- First Love

Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na

I was so young back then, I could only see you
I didn’t need anything if we could be together

We fought a lot about things that weren’t a big deal
When I think about it, only laughter comes out

Sometimes I’m so curious about you, I could die
But there’s nothing I can do about it now

Sometimes I think of you and I miss you so much
But I will just bury it in as beautiful memories

First love, my unforgettable love
Why does it hurt so much? Am I the only one who remembers?
First love, I call out to you with this desperate voice
Until it can reach you, until always

Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na

Hello? Just saying that one word is hard so I can’t even call you
I’m sorry that I didn’t treat you better, I’m so sad over you
I can’t be held by you anymore, even in my dreams
Don’t ever hurt again and be happy, I will pray for you

The past memories flicker before me, I can’t do anything
Why am I such a fool?

First love, my unforgettable love
Why does it hurt so much? Am I the only one who remembers?
First love, I call out to you with this desperate voice
Until it can reach you, until always

I close my eyes in this moment, tears flow in this moment
Why am I so pathetic, still not over you?
Without a choice, I’ll pray for your happiness

Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na